LEAVING THE HUECO MUNDO

Although i am not able to understand , why the hell ,my previous posts are all missing, though it seems to me a new beginning.

The beginning is also not as smooth.. i thought this will be my last struggle here, in Pune , but to be honest, nothing is easily achievable, not even peace. 

I have my fur babies, ginger and mishti, my 2 beautiful persian cats, due to this fucking corona, i am not able to take them with me now. i am shattered i am broken.

So many thoughts cam, so many opinions i took, i just only wanted to know, that i am not doing anything wrong, i seek validation from others, and only a pair of questionable eyes, made my core shook. i am guilty.

I can't do that. i can't leave him alone, i can't abandon him.
He is my cat. i love him. how can i be a mother who abandon their child.

i am shattered , i am broken, scattered, like trampled rose petals and fallen autumn leaves.

i am still waiting, i am still waiting for the fucking silver lining, because it cannot be seen in yourself, that is  a myth, who say that they can find silver lining in themselves.